Sometimes it's hard to grasp when things are going bad that God does love you and he is watching over you.
There are those that will feel like they're not being "Christian like" if they get these feelings. That's not so all it means is that you are human.
There are also times when you feel guilty.
The reason I know this is because we are in the oil field business and pretty much the whole world knows how that's going right now.
I actually got some bad news I found myself out on the back porch feeling oh so sorry for myself.
You will find that you're going to go through bad things what you need to remember is to always put your faith in God even when it seems hopeless